Change is Nature

Things don’t change. You change your way of looking, that’s all.

Thousand of things I want to say, million of words to choose, but it feels like forever till I could really put it all together. Expressing a feeling could be really hard, especially when you're confused and your mind is battling with your emotions. The battlefield? Right in the centre of my heart.
I'll think this through, eventually.

Someone To Watch Over Me

There's a saying old says that love is blind

Still we're often told: "Seek and you shall find."

So I'm going to seek a certain lad I've had in mind

Looking everywhere, haven't found him yet

He's the big affair I cannot forget

Only man I ever think of with regret

I'd like to add his initials to my monogram

Tell me, where is the shepherd for this lost lamb?

There's a somebody I'm longing to see

I hope that he turns out to be

Someone who'll watch over me

I'm a little lamb who's lost in the wood

I know I could always be good

To one who'll watch over me

Although he may not be

The man some girls think of as handsome

To my heart he carries the key

Won't you tell him please to put on some speed

Follow my lead, oh, how I need

Someone who'll watch over me.

:)

Wuddayoulookinat?

My goal is to be my own One Of A Kind.

haha :)

Not All Is Pretty

Just as i expected the movie 'The Ugly Truth' is a killer! it jumps right into my top list of the best movie ever made by mankind! haha

"You think you know what men gonna do, you think you know what men want to do but when it comes right down to that moment where they actually need to step up and, i dont know..make a move?! They chicken out!
The great, strong, brave men that we've all been reading about in novels & watching them in movies since we were 9 years old..well, they dont exist. Men aren't strong, men are not brave, Men! are afraid. Men.Are.Weak." - Abby in The Ugly Truth

LMAO! This is just what i need. Though i'd say 95% of the content is freaking true. And the part 'freaky' is when it pulls the trigger and shot me in the head. In my dictionary it means 'i hate it when something reminds me bout the ugliness of the truth". Especially when Abby (Katherine Heigl) ask Mike (Gerard Butler) about the one who broke his heart and said "Im just interested in what makes you, you.". Cause you see, Mike is someone who doesnt believe there's such thing as a good relationship and he's a master in reading men & women. You could say that i've been walking in his shoes ever since i saw myself getting my hopes up and finally crashing down and burn. I tend to be 'Mike', standing strong to not let anything make me feel that way again. But when someone or something reminds me of what makes me the way i am today, i dare say its like someone just turn the knife over...ha-ha-hahh (:

Abby : I had momentarily lost my sense of judgement when i thought you were more than what you are but you arent, clearly!
Mike : Oh yeah? Well what does that mean?
Abby : "Im Mike Chadway, i like girls in Jell-o, i like to f**k like a monkey. Dont fall in love, its SCARY."
Mike : Yeah, it is scary. Its terrifying, especially when im in love with a psycho like you!
Abby : I am not a psycho!
Mike : I just told you i love you n all u heard was 'psycho'.

HAHA. Want more? Watch it yourself ;)

How Can It Feel So Right When It's Wrong

'Sometimes in life there really are bonds formed that can never be broken. Sometimes you really can find that one person who will stand by you no matter what. Maybe you'll find it in a spouse and celebrate it with your dream wedding, but there's also the chance that the one person you can count on for a lifetime, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself is the same person who's been standing beside you all along.' - Bride Wars the movie

What if, that one person doesnt feel like you've been there for them the same way they've been there for you. As if the one person only sees 'you' instead of 'us'.
You really can find that one person you can count on for a lifetime, but what if the one person doesnt feel like they can count on you.
Its not about how do you find that one person for yourself, its about how do you keep that one person to be standing beside you and how to seal that bonds forever. Just because you know they'll stand there by you no matter what, doesnt mean they'll stand by you forever.

Prove Your Worth

There will be good days. And there will be bad days.
There will be times when you want to turn around, pack it up, and call it quits.
Don’t give up at that time. Don’t Quit.
Its an opportunity to prove your worth.

2 Love You Is

2 love u is to fear you,

2 cry when your away.

2 see u in my every thoughts,

2 want u everyday.

2 want u is an addiction,

2 want u makes me ill.

Every look I lay upon u,

Makes my world stand still.

2 hear u is a living dream,

Of words I've heard before.

2 touch u is like a dangerous drug,

It makes me need u even more.

2 smell u takes my breath away,

I get lost in your cologne.

2 love u is 2 hurt inside,

Whenever I'm alone.

2 taste your lips leaves me numb,

2 hold u leaves me whole.

2 love u is 2 need you,

2 know u moves my soul!

What am i thinking when im posting this? Huo da & Jiang Meng! *grin*

I specially edited the picture above, thats him & me *grin*. LOL!

Alright, so i am currently addicted to him, who? aaa just a character in a Taiwanese drama series.

I cant deny i do falls alot for characters in tv. what can i say, its my guilty pleasure. Not to mention im a sucker for mixed-chinese looks. sigh*

But anyhow i dont feel the same way to the actor, i mean i only love him in the movie not himself in real life. so read this carefully, i.dont.give.a.damn.about.the.actor. (its for those who claims he's theirs. sheesh people!)

So the character belongs to all. I already keep mine :D

Brain meets Heart

How can someone say that they love themselves but still letting anyone hurt them? isnt that just mean you're lying and worst..betraying yourself.
That question changed my valuation of people around me. When you love something, you treasure it, protect it so that no one can break nor harm it, you keep it close to you because you want to keep it longer. No bruise, no scratch, no dirt nor dust..just perfect & unchanged because you know it might not be valuable to you anymore if there's a slight changes.
Frequently people points at those who causes the pain to them. Unfortunately they rarely ever ask themselves "why didnt i ever expected this? I knew it but still letting it happens to me." Ever thought at that point when you're hurt by someone, you realize they're just a waste of your time. Because time is precious and should be wisely spend with something or someone that are not worthless. So suck it up, cause those who hurts you are not worth your time.
Where i pointed was myself. I gain my strength to stand up again after got knocked down by a human being that doesnt even qualified to be in my life. Nevertheless, i chose not to deny that person ever crossed my life because they did. I know it hurts to think of the person you love is dead and you will never see them again. But it's worst if you set your mind to think like that just because you're rejecting the thoughts of that person never even exist. It's pathetic & no one likes to feel that way.
So there i was, shattered in pieces until a voice stroked my brain asking me questions, giving me hopes to regain myself. Its almost like when you fight with your boyfriend and you ask so many questions to them just to see if they truly love you.*pfft*

Brain : Do you love your heart?
Me : Of course, i do.
Brain : Liar, if you do you wouldnt have let it get hurt.

Weird but its fact. Im not saying that you should build a wall with high security system around your heart. That will surely keeps everyone out even those who matters and trust me you dont want that. All im saying is you're capable of thinking & choosing whats best. Its okay to take risk in your life because it gives you some spice. Accept whoever enters your life, just dont let them be your life. Never make someone a priority when you're just an option to them.