October 31, 2009
October 26, 2009
Elaboration: "i know most of the answers will be "stop chasing dream & go back to reality". i was in reality n even swore to myself i'll never find the one cause to me there are no men in this world, only boys. That is until i found this one singer and got head over heels with his originality. He's the only one i find..unique. its like the quote, "seek and you shall find". what if i've already found him, but he's miles away."- Me
Answer: "Listen to me when i say this: I know what it's like because i was in that EXACT situation. I fell in love with the singer in a band, and i knew he was the one for me. The problem was that i didn't know him. I know you aren't going to listen to me when i say this, because i wouldn't have listened either, but anyways...He isn't the one. There are others out there. You don't know him. As much as you know about him, as much as you think you know him, you don't. You don't know him. You don't know what he does behind closed doors. You don't know how he treats people. What you see isn't really him. it's Hollywood, and everything they do. Trust me, it's a bad situation to be in. You'll eventually realize that. I was "in love" with this guy for way too long, and then when i realized what he really was i was crushed. Everything i thought i'd been in love with was a complete lie. Now, everything is okay. It's been a year since i had my realization, and i know that the whole obsession was stupid. I'm really glad i'm over it. Now i really like this boy who goes to my school. It's a million times better, because he's real and right here. You don't have to go online or to the tv to see him. He's just there. My advice to you is to enjoy his music but try your best not to get too caught up in it, because as much as you feel like you know him, you really don't. Most likely you'll realize that eventually, if you don't now. I just hope it won't be too hard when you do. Good luck. I hope everything works out." -Anonymous
aaand there it is, the ugly truth. I already knew the result, the little voice made me do it.
Who am i kidding, a 16 year old teenager who cant even drive without getting lost, wishing to be with a popular 23 year old unique-musician-psycho-maniac-cute-idiotic..son of a dork. HAHA. Fine, at least he proved to me that there is someone original enough to impress me.
Truthfully says, this isnt the first time this kind of 'love' hits me (but the first after i changed personality). Im professionally trained for any kind of 'bumper' ahead. haha. Therefore, back to my previous state then! Thanks for listening/reading ;)
October 21, 2009
Prove? One, i asked the world for their opinions on my feeling towards the lead singer. Planning on posting the best answer i got from the viewer. You'll think im crazy but hey, i dont care.
Two, couldnt stop myself from surfing more info about them & not to mention countless videos of McFly watched on YouTube.
Three, i made Twitter account just to follow the band's most latest updates.
Now, to me creating another account apart from how-many-webs i've already joined is a big deal. Cause i dont care about getting any feedback from strangers. So what's the point of creating another profile for others to check on me when im not even interested, right? urgh! So you get the point where i've no will power to endure them. Of course, since they're the only reason i created my twitter, i've no interest on following other people apart from McFly & other celebrities. sigh*
If i could just pour my heart out and let you see the answers to all the questions, i would. But it seems like you couldnt care less to even notice this.
So why continue right? I guess for you, "us" just not worth to fight for, huh?
If that's how you feel then i'll just go with it.
October 17, 2009
Best feature, his smile. He loves to make people laugh, makes me smile even when he’s not trying. He’s very open-minded..perhaps too open (hahah) & supporting. He always joke around, crazy even (wouldn’t miss that) but it surprises me when he too knows when to be serious. Hardly sweet-talking but very caring in his own way. It’s funny, he might looks tough in public eyes, but he’s as tame as a cat with his close ones. He can focus on my voice even though I’m not the only calling his name. He’s very unique & definitely my one of a kind. Most importantly, he knows his priority. Not to forget, the common reasons..he’s loyal & considerate. On top of all, I’m part of his life.
So there’s this list. A list of ‘why I hate him’. Couldn’t think of anything really. Maybe cause the lucky number one says it all. *drumming*
1. ‘He’ does not exist. (not really)
How can I say this. Umm, chyeah well..only one person I could think of when I wrote this. Believe me, not a second of every word i could stop myself from smiling. God! what have I got myself into.
October 9, 2009
Be fair.That's what they said after giving some thoughts about a question. The same one i asked you.
Remember it? About a boy and a girl.
They both claim to be each other's besties. But somehow, she doesnt feel like the first among all his girlfriends. Definitely different than how she makes him feel like he's number one among all her boyfriends. Does that look fair to you?
Tell me, dear. Do you remember what was your answer?
You said, you know how that feels like and you reminded me with one of your past. Then, you said..the girl should've treat him the same way he treats her.
I asked you, "really?" and you said, "yes".
I looked at you at that moment and tried to imagine what would your answer be if only you knew that question was based on us.
October 7, 2009
October 6, 2009
Im posting this just for you.
Couldnt say it right in your face, couldnt text it or even talk about it to you.
Because im scared, scared you'll run away and try to hide from it.
Just like you always do when there's a problem ahead..run away.
Yes, there's a problem.
If you're wondering why we've been apart lately that's because there is something wrong and i need you to know that.
That's all, for now.
October 4, 2009
5 houses in a week. 2 down, 3 to go.
House number one, Syahirah's! hahah. It was on this saturday which is today..or yesterday.
Nevermind. Actually, her house was down on number two cause before hers i went to my mom's friend openhouse. I even noted myself to save some space for later on. But it slipped my mind when we got lost for an hour 'tawaf-ing' the neighbourhood. haha. I ate a whole plate of pulut kuning with rendang. drools*
By the time we got home it was already about 2 hours away from the time for Syahirah's openhouse. briefly said, i got a ride from Auni, picked Joanne from school, then straight to Syahirah's. whee. We waited for others to arrive first before we go eat. After, we 'filled the tank' we went to her room. First thought..its Pink! then jump on the bed, digging on her stuffs (sorry) and ow yeah! how can i forget, she has her own bathroom..not only that, she has her own JACUZZI TUB! sigh*
How many of us (girls especially) wish for a good relaxing spa treatment after a long stressful day? and how would you react when you see one right in front of your eyes? you go gaga all over! lol
The rest of the day was great. we had our VIP tour around the house, looked through all her baby pictures (except for Joanne, too faithful to her phone), had photoshoots & more snapping pictures. here's some.
It was tiring, but i love it. the more the merrier, rite?
We got home so late, about 7.15pm. Traffic jam in Malaysia..no surprise. Guess thats it for today. Cant wait for Teena's tomorrow! She makes the best Lasagna! gulp*